I'm not a simple women. Im complicated. I am sure a lot of us think the same. SOmewhre in my chaos i want to be simple. And In my work I am... I see two people. One is me who is a driven and crazy obsessed clothes hoarder and selfexpressed workaholic ( only recently admitted ). And the other a women who likes nothing more to sit on a bench on the porch sipping tea while watching my children roam the fields. I want to be both. And while Im at a point where im only one daily, in my work I am the latter... i see my wild and free spirit through everything I shoot. I see the girl who has drive but its more for life than anything else... I hope to be the girl i work so hard to be. Its funny how I think i have to work to be her.... when really.... i could just be.
The Blissful Maven
When, my, time comes around
Lay me gently in the cold dark earth
No grave can hold my body down
I'll crawl home to her ~ Hozier
Based off the song by Skylar Grey " I know you".
"Its not what you accomplish in life that makes a life, its living of that life to its fullest by being emotionally present to the world around you" ~ Anonymous
" You will never influence the world by trying to be like it" ~ Anonymous
I've mad it a habit to fail or be denied at something every new year. This doesn't happen on purpose but i think it happens because life is telling me something. When I fail I become stronger, I learn a bit more about who I am. It makes me try harder. I welcome these failures and denials. To me these are arrows. Arrows that are showing me my way in this almost impossible journey of being something worth noticing. This session was born from a failure and a denial. I feel like every time it happens I am more sure of who I am and where I'm going. This session means so much to me and my vision. I cannot tell you how to feel about your own failures, but I can tell you how I feel about mine. I love them, and I hold them dear to my heart. Because of them I am better. I am a wanderer who is not lost. Because of failure I have a path... a way.. a knowing of who I am. I welcome it like I welcome the fear. These two are my companions in this journey, along with confidence in the front seat.
Do you welcome the failure? The fear? for some they will cripple, but for others they will make stronger. Keep on <3
The Blissful Maven
I have thought long and hard about who I am. Not just in the past year but in the past week mostly. When I think about who I am, I see a risk taker, a person that cannot conform the normalcy around me. Its not a desire to stand out from the crowd or a desire to better than anyone. It's a desire to show the world what my soul desires to capture. I may shock you, scare you, inspire you, or even lose you... And Its a risk I'm willing to take for the sake of my visions purity... All I can promise is that I will be true to myself..even when Im so scared... like now...I'm scared... But not scared enough to play it safe...
If you look closely, you can see my story.
If your still here after this.... Put your seat belt on, its going to be an amazing ride.
When did capturing beauty become all about makeup and clothes? Isn't what's natural beautiful as well. Its always been easy for me to know what I want when it comes to beauty. I look at each women as if they are my lover, or my mother, sister, friend. What makes each and everyone one of these women beautiful? Its seeing them through the eyes of the ones who love them most. I look at them the way they should be looked at and admired, not like a women in a mans magazine. Is that what real beauty is? Not to me.... I see them. I see them the way they were made to be seen.
Im not one photograph without emotion lol But I find so much beauty in photographing women in such raw and emotional beauty. I don't have any bells and whistles its just you and me. No make up artist, no fancy clothes..no fancy places to go or hotels to shoot in. This next month will be about the love and beauty in just that rawness. Let me give it to you real......
I can't say enough how much I loved shooting this family. She is not only a fellow photographer but a dear friend of mine. Enjoy their love and expressions.
Words are hard for me sometimes and sometimes they are not, but one thing for sure is that these two had me connected. I'm always connected on some level with my subjects but I couldn't help but feel their love every time they touched.
Emotion for is #1. I love to an image and not only does the moment take me there but I also feel like I'm Apart of their world. The best was to describe this its like reading a book and imagining you are in the book. That's how it was with them. Pure love. young love. So many moments took me to a place remembering why I do what I do.... Being an artist isn't about perfection. its responses from your subject...I hope to be conveying for many years to come. And if god wills be doing what I love as long as I live. Thank you for looking.